I mean its bascially the same principle.
Immigrants get “adopted” by a country
Just as Orphans get adopted by prospective parents
Then you get the International Adoptions which is bascially both combined… those probably have the most identity crisis…
Jesus christ. I sorry to hear that.
This makes me appreciate my parents even more. I mean at least they’re more of the “status quo” type of people and not extremists.
I remember cuddling with mom a lot… and I felt very warm and safe when I sleep with parents when I was younger…
I wonder how much did my mother’s affection changed me…
Did I get more “soft” because of that?
Like I have a weird emotional attachment to my mom who says mean things to me a lot…
So I essentially feel very vulnerable and need my mom to validate my existence.
I wonder… what if my mom was more “cold” towards me… or like died? would I have just grown more independent? But conversely that also makes me more deprived of love and that doesn’t go well… I might’ve become a more aggressive person…
But my mom is so like ambivalent towards me that I essentially have two personalities. Sometimes I’m just in rage… other times I feel so timid I wanna be a kid again…
Did my mom’s ambivalent affection helped or harmed me?
I mean dad doesn’t even show affection at all.
I mean I guess now in this timeline… I’ve felt what cuddling feels like… so I could pass on this feeling to the next generation, but without the other side, the negative side, of it (the random “bipolar mode” yelling at me)