「黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui」(he/him)@sh.itjust.works to Showerthoughts@lemmy.world · 12 days agoIt must be frustrating for someone to be born into a royal family but being unable to succeed the crown because they were the second child... or be the first child but they were female...message-squaremessage-square22fedilinkarrow-up122arrow-down15file-text
arrow-up117arrow-down1message-squareIt must be frustrating for someone to be born into a royal family but being unable to succeed the crown because they were the second child... or be the first child but they were female...「黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui」(he/him)@sh.itjust.works to Showerthoughts@lemmy.world · 12 days agomessage-square22fedilinkfile-text
minus-square「黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui」(he/him)@sh.itjust.worksOPlinkfedilinkarrow-up2·edit-212 days agoI get to become a 黑孩子 for the first few years of my life… Mom always be like: “I had to pay several tens of thousands of ¥ rmb to get your legal identity”. Like I remember she say it so often during my childhood and constantly recounting the story of illegally giving birth to me… She makes me feel like I owe her a debt… like on top of the “debt” of her taking care of me… I already got rejected by a government… I’d feel very sad if she stops talking to me… Like… I feel like I need her affirmation to feel like I deserve to exist… otherwise I’m just some child that’s never supposed to be born and even the mom disinherited… Like… what right do I even have to exist in this world… So I really need my mom’s approval…
minus-squareɔiƚoxɘup@infosec.publinkfedilinkarrow-up3·12 days agoSorry dude, that sounds totally toxic. I hope you can reconcile or at least get out of that situation.
I get to become a 黑孩子 for the first few years of my life…
Mom always be like: “I had to pay several tens of thousands of ¥ rmb to get your legal identity”.
Like I remember she say it so often during my childhood and constantly recounting the story of illegally giving birth to me…
She makes me feel like I owe her a debt… like on top of the “debt” of her taking care of me…
I already got rejected by a government…
I’d feel very sad if she stops talking to me…
Like…
I feel like I need her affirmation to feel like I deserve to exist…
otherwise I’m just some child that’s never supposed to be born and even the mom disinherited…
Like… what right do I even have to exist in this world…
So I really need my mom’s approval…
Sorry dude, that sounds totally toxic. I hope you can reconcile or at least get out of that situation.