When you get into that head space, you don’t care about anything at all. The worst postpartum depression I had even made me stop caring about my kids. Then you dissociate and there’s very little of what makes you, you, left. When I think back on it it’s like I was trapped in my mind and someone else took over.
And furthermore, this makes the other person a suspect in your death. Just a super shitty way to do it all around.
A lot of people include “I don’t give a shit about anyone else” in their “I don’t give a shit [about myself]” suicidal thoughts.
- Ex-cop, dealt with lots of suicide-by-cop attempts and investigated a lot of suicides
When you get into that head space, you don’t care about anything at all. The worst postpartum depression I had even made me stop caring about my kids. Then you dissociate and there’s very little of what makes you, you, left. When I think back on it it’s like I was trapped in my mind and someone else took over.
This sounds truly horrible.
You appear to be better, I hope that’s the case and that it’s there to stay.
Maybe that was the plan, for some reason… Hatred against their family or something?