The reality is, people will treat you so much worse as a trans person. They will just straight up ignore you and pretend like you dont exist. I feel like people are getting dumber by the year. Im not sure why you would believe something like this. I feel like anyone from the 90s or early 2000s would have just understood this easily. People do not listen to cis womens feelings either. The world doesnt care about anyones feelings and feelings are usually a way that people try to get you to feel sorry for them. In fact, i almost know this is the case when it comes to someone like you. The reason is simply because you are too dull to realize that people are not nice to trans people outside of their own social circle, and even then we are often quite shitty to each other. Real feelings are spontanous. Something that happens after a break up or when you lose a job or a friend. Having feelings all the time to me just seems like you want people to take care of you and drag you through life. You want attention. It probably means you refuse to examine yourself and figure out what is actually wrong with you. People only care about your feelings when its valid, not when you are being a piece of shit. Nobody is going to force a girl to date you for example. Nobody is going to feed you. Nobody is going to make you remember to buy your mother or friends a present for their birthday. These are things you have to do. You have to work on your looks, find a job, quit bad habbits, respect people. You cant get mad at someone because they dont want to be your friend, you can’t be mad at a girl because she doesn’t like you. These are not valid feelings. These are you being a manchild. Even if people wanted to baby you through life people cannot afford to do this nor have the time, and when you understand this you will realize that you are being completly unreasonable. Stop complaining and take control of your life. Hate yourself sometimes. Cry sometimes by yourself. Think about a future you would actually like to have and work on it a little when you can.

People unironicly think being trans is a political statement. People are really dumb.

Being trans has nothing to do with someones sexuality. Just because everything is sexual to you doesnt mean its like that for other people. To be clear, just so you dont get confused. This is an example of you mistaken what being trans is, not anyone else.

Yeah whatever buddas crayon

You wouldnt get so mad if it weren’t true. Your built a psychological wall to protect your sense of self. If you want to be happy you have to do things like sleep well, and obtain independence, not mess with your brain chenistry, and become an adult. If you dont, you will just stay trapped in that mindset forever instead of living life and being happy. I didn’t figure out how to be happy until i was 29. I had to abandon all of my defense melanisms, my ego, and listen to my heart. Follow only what i knew to be true. Eventually I did become happy.

You dont need meatonin to sleep. The more you tell yourself things like that the more you will believe it and the harder it will be to get back to reality. Also just so you know, when you dont sleep enough you mitocondria oxidizes and destroys your cells. This affects you intelligence and your higher thinking. You night just have to take my advice until you can get your brain healthy and understand that what in saying is true. That starts with, cutting out the drugs, the meletonin, getting a job so you have a routine and can sleep once a day, and then, after your brain becomes healthy, or as it is becoming healthy, you can aork through you brain and fix it by thinking and understanding, and you can become independent. Take care of yourself. Have pride in yourself and follow your dreams.

Stop taking melatonin and get a job.

Dont be in a hurry when you get less sleep time goes by faster and the years fly by, but if you sleep alot the days are slow and easy and the years go by like eons.

That only happens to me, the blocking out, if i get less then like 5 1/2 hours of sleep.

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I set an extra alarm at my last time, so if i accidently turn it off I still have a backup.

For me its the opposite and you are only waking up like a 5 seconds to hit snooze, you fall back asleep instantly. You might find yourself going to bed 30 minutes earlier or something but who cares? I dont fight sleep so that helps. I really enjoy my sleep. I also enjoy the morning time now because im super comfortable for like 30 minutes before i go to work as my mind slowly wakes up.

I have been doing it for years and i always wake up easily. It works very well for me. The issue I have is im slow to wake up. Since i decided to try this, I never really had any issue unless i only had a few hours of sleep.

This is a very easy problem to solve, set an alarm 30 minutes before you wake up and snooze it three times, and then you will be awake by the time your actual alarm goes off. If that doesnt work increase to 45m-60m. This way you get to go back to sleep several times before you have to get up. Lets your brain cath up to capitalism. Those 10 minute gaps between snoozes end up feeling like 20-30m each.

Whether you are even capable of learning stuff depends entirely on your genetics and epigendtics. Only a few students in any one area will ever retain much knowledge. The thing that actually determines how well your society becomes, tends to be things like how happy the childhood of your citizens are. Very few people ever seek knowledge long term within a healthy lifestyle. School for most kids is just a way to babysit them while the parents work long shifts for corporations.

The tragedy is the kids in south korea hardly get a childhood at all. They stay in ultra competative schools during the day, only to be shuttled off to cram schools in the evening. They are not even human beings in the eyes of their own parents. They exist soley to fullfill the dreams of their parents, which is to hopefully work hard enough to become some executive for one of the seveal corporations that almost completly own the South Korean Economy.

Many of these kids, like many in South Korea will grow up to be massivly depressed alchoholics and workaholics. Never having much of a life beyond serving their managers. This comes out in several ways in the character of Koreans. Many of them are incredibly dark people. Thats why media like the squid games is so popular over there. Behind the venure of a very productive and industrious society where most forgo almost all of their individuality, never even having a childhood. Behind it lies so many incredibly dark and deeply depressed people traped within a virtual prison of wealth and status.

People like this would maybe end up ruling the world, given they work so much, and so hard, yet with their childhood also dies their soul. Their creativity dies, their dreams die, their human spirit is deminished in the hell they create and call progress. The parts of their dna that make them human, slowly whither away under hyper corporatism. Just like everything else in their society a child is nothing more then property. An investment by corporations. A robot that is as equally bland as it is numb. Never does anyone in a society like that actually consider that maybe they dont have a right to dictate every little aspect of their childs life in order to promote what they believe a child should be. So those that feel, those that see deeply the lights in the city nights. Those that see beauty. They die away as the human race regresses day by day.

South Korea has always been a deeply disturbing place to me. A place that is truely inhumane, yet such a beautiful place as well. Behind every woman who looks likes a flight attendent, and every man wearing a suit or dress clothes, is a society which has almost no creativity and soul. No individualism. No happiness. No relationships. Everything is about efficency, everything is about materialism. All the money in the world doesnt matter if you don’t get to fall in love with someone, and have dreams, and watch your kids play and be happy. What is even the point of life it is nothing but work, followed by a few hours a drinking before crashing out for the night, and starting it all over again?

They don’t have any in the U.S unfortunatly. They wont sell the radios to access our cell networks to companies that wont do what they want them to do. Like lock bootloaders, ban apps they dont like, etc.

What does it profit a man to gain the whole world but lose his soul?

Its a horrible law, although there is no punishment, it just normalizes the idea of persecuting and shaming innocent people. The laws are not good when you use them to micromanage your neighbors lives. Laws are supposed to be for taking away the need for violence from society and putting judgment into a transparent and safe and strict process. All this type of stuff just gives the state more power to harm people it doesnt like who are doing nothing actually wrong. Like all laws this will only be selectivly enforced against people the powerful dont like. The reason countries really start to become bad is when you get one group of idiots in power who think they know everything, who think it their role to mold humanity into their idea of right and wrong. People lose their motivation, their creativity, their will to build things, because their life becomes a benign hell of just being a host for elitest parasites. It starts with elitest assholes telling you how you are allowed to spend your free time, and what types of haircuts are acceptable, and what types of books you are allowed to read, mass zurveliience, propganda on every type of media you consume. Silencing disidents. It ends with a society where nobody cares about anything. Nobody wants to work. There isnt anything to buy anyways. Creativity at first and then the good genes in the population just die out. The human race is truely fucked. The greatest filter we have is our complete inability to not abuse innocent people. So many humans just want to control each other. Humans are obsessed with controling each other. Nothing great was ever created by control, only by the florishing of the human spirit and liberty, allowing people to be creative and weird and happy. History so clearly shows this. Religous societies and authoritarian societies are always complete shitholes even for the ones who benifit, like the racialy pure male normative class. The nicest societies are the ones who out liberty above all else. The richest person in a bad country is worse off then the poorest person in a nice country. Money doesnt buy happiness. Money cannot buy you love, not real love, just a simulation of it. Money cannot protect your kids. Money does not give your life meaning. Money usually just ruins you even more then you already were and then you jave to lie and xeluse yourself into thinking you deserve it, to avoid cognitive disonance with the only people who can tolorate you. Too bad people are too dumb to realize this now. People who trade liberty for temporary security, people who trade liberty so they can avoid actually facing any real issues in society, people who trade liberty so they can be comcortable and growntheir 401k, are the worst types of people.

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Downlaod managers can work with most downloads. If a site is really badly coded it still wont work. Bittorrent is good for this. I recomend qbittorrent on linux/windows, or flud on android.

With bittorrent you want to configure your settings. Set you max upload to half of what your connections upload speed is, or lower, you might have to experiment with this to see what your router and connection can handle. Activate “exit on finish” limit your max connections to 50-100 if you dont have a router with a strong CPU. Enable “require encryption” or use encryption and dont allow non encrypted connections. (Keeps your isp from throttling and helps keep you safer) Disable automatic start when you device boots up (very important)

Then you are all set. Just remember to make sure you dont run it all the time, bittorrent is hard on your router, not that it will mess it up but it will load up the CPU, honestly not much worse then windows built in spyware these days, and try to place the files where you actually want them when creating a download, so that you can reupload to the world. If you move the files after downloading them, then the client cant reupload to other users. You could even consider setting your max upload slots to something reasonable like 24 with a max upload rate of 200 KB/s, and let it run all the time. Be careful when hosting copyrighted content unless you have a VPN always active. You really should these days, they are cheap. I think i payed $80 for a year of proton VPN, a swiss company that isnt as beholden to the giant global intelligence network. You should also support artists so dont pirate unless you dont have a good option for getting your content. Pirated content also has a risk of containing malware and getting you sued.

As someone who lives in the U.S and is always on the road for work, i constantly have to deal with terrible and 3rd world internet infastructure. I am very familiar. Half of my state has about a 40% packet loss rate or something. Idk. Its bad. It drops out completly multiple times per day, cell towers, ISPs, credit card machines, etc. Sometimes you might just need to download from a better connection in another part of your state or something.

I dont have any recomendations for a download manager for PC, but for android ADM, advanced download manager seems to work well. On PC i usually just use torrents. Using a VPN in exclusivly TCP mode can also help, UDP is a lower latency lossy connection, TCP will resend packets until all of them get through. Using a vpn with TCP can help if you have a crappy connection. It wont help much if you are getting multi second drop outs. For that you really need bittorrent, or a download manager. If the zite doesnt work with download managers, and you cant get a torrent, you can try to find a mirror of the download somewhere else. Tey searching for the file name in quotes, like “filename.zip” and then use -website name to remove results from spammy sites. A search might be like, ( “filename.zip” -website1.com -website2.com )

Unless you are running a mesh node or joining the global supercompute cluster, you wouldnt need to run any hardware. I more mean like a network of towers run by the state using sub 1000 MGHz freqiencies or soemthing, to get good range, maybe even lower frequencies. You could maybe get like 50+ mile range with small devices at low power if you had the right spectrum. Perhaps a fallback mode of several hundred miles for low speed mode.