YT has black boxes at all major ISPs. These cache local content. They prioritize what gets shown based on what is cached. This is why YT changed drastically around 2017. It is why you do not see content from ultra niche and high quality sources at random or get into advanced education like happened in the past.
I care dude. It will get better. Think about projects you can mess with. Take junk apart just to figure out how it works. If nothing else, save and start organizing the hardware like screws and stuff. Spare hardware is super useful for fixing things and you will have an enormous variety if you just take apart junk and keep the spares.
Before the end of the day today, commit to doing something physical for me. Walk outside for a bit, ride a bike, watch the sun go down. Do anything that gets your heart rate up enough to barely break a sweat at a minimum.
Arduino stuff can be fun and an intro to programming stuff if you have never tried it.